Her Life

Idiot.. Crazy ass.. Stupid.. Arrogant.. itna simple equation dha aur you messed it up all? you are such an Idiot? man you can be be confident, but never over confident.. you paid the price for it.. you knew it right, knew it well and you missed and messed it.. too good that you had nice external examiners.. shut up.. don't explain anything..

oh hey good evening.. don't wonder.. its the other side of me scolding another side of me. haha.. yeah, the exam is over and i messed it up totally.. not that i didn't get the output and results, not that i got out of the exam hall an hour before the time, its just that i am not satisfied about my own performance.. i know, i believe, i can do better.. and i should have.. no turn backs.. no worries.. its all fine now..

And you guessed it right.. its another story in store here... with the same title "her life".. just couldn't think of any other name..

She was reading her elder daughter's mail as the six year old Neha came smiling and running to her. she spoke in her soft voice, "momma can i lie in your lap for some time now?" She hugged Neha and made her lie in her lap.. few minutes later the door bell rang. she went to open the door.. there stood the man with a smile.. Neha moved back to her own room as her mom closed the door after letting the man in..

Later that night, as she removed her gown in front of that man, all in her mind was the mail saying " momma, the last date for my fee payment is day after tomorrow."

oh boy oh boy, i am going to sleep peacefully this night.. no worries of an exam.. no tensions.. oh damn, should wake up early tomorrow to reach the college on time.. damn it sucks to have college on saturdays.. but no way out, there is another exam coming up soon.. and today's suggested reading is this.

so long folks

love

shravan

PS : iPhrase is a new blog that we started..it is Dedicated primarily to showcase posts on inspirational quotes and snippets, this blog will be a combined effort and aims at featuring short yet powerful posts that have a meaningful takeaway for its patrons- as Rakesh bhai says :D i hope you come around that place and have a look and have your stay if you like it. here is the [link]can mail me @ iphraseblog@gmail.com if you wish to join.. always welcome to be a part of this small venture.

Her Life

its two weeks that i started writing here.. and look, where i stand, 14 regular posts, and people reading me, 1700 visits, +150 comments, all in 14 days... did i ever think that there will be someone to read me when i started it with quillinginblood back in 2007? no i didn't. all i wanted was a place where i can be and so far soo good.. ah nothing.. just felt like saying all these.. but actually were saved to say when i complete the 50 here :) will have something better then :) and all credit goes to you, my blog family, my virtual family who complete this place, who make me write and think and learn..

oh oh you have now started worrying about the title, "her life", okk.. its just another attempt from me in story telling :) so here we go..

she came home late, after visiting her professor.. Reaching home, she said good night to mom who till then was waiting for her to reach and entered her room.. wrote her diary, drank the cup of milk and then slept..

the next morning, the newspaper said the success story of her, she being the university topper.. her mom went in to wake her up, but her words reached dead ears...

they broke the door, and there she lay, in her bed, a strip of i-pill tablet next to her, an empty bottle and a dead ant next to the cup of milk she drank last night.the diary still kept open read, i never knew my professor liked me and not my talents.

its my physics university lab exam tomorrow.. and i feel soo good about it.. and wish me luck folks.. and yeah, for the first time, i am rambling before my day is over.. i know what i am going to do till this day ends.. watch tv, read and learn the experiments once again, make a couple of calls and come online by around 8 if possible and sleep peacefully.

Guiding Light

Cold, dark and isolated

the way forward

hardly could i see

a step ahead

yet my desire to continue

draws me to that own path

i walk, i stumble

i fall, but i never quit

it pains, it bleeds,

i struggle, yet i go on

nothings stops,me from the move

all i have, in me, to hold,

the faith in Him, unseen and

the hopes in me, unburned,

and many a dreams to fulfil

I walk, guided by the light you show,

my inner self.

Hasna, this is for you.. Remember you asked me to write on anything other than Death, Love, Loss, Pain.

A Crushed Dream

His heart skipped a beat when he saw her smile.. she a total stranger, dressed in blue jean and white top.. he gazed at her to find an angelic face.. he looked to himself to see if he dressed properly or not as he found no other reason for her to smile at him.. finding himself neat, he looked at her again, and gosh.. the same smile with more intensity.. their eyes met.. winked for a while and then they passed each other..

at the turn he looked back, following the noise heard..

there she was, talking to a handsome..

and then his heart missed another beat.

PS : poor me.. i thought she was smiling at me and i fell i love with her, first sight .. and broke my heart instantly..

My Journey

alone, i started my journey
took so long for you to come
yet, i don't remember when,
you came, held my hands.

hastened us, together
the route, so isolated
the shades, the rains
the lights, and the winds.

a new horizon seen,
one day; a new break.
new world, new people,
new places, and new life.

my destination, yet not reached
you, thought, your did.
left me alone, and you walked,
to the new sun rise seen..

all alone, i pursue my journey
many come, many leave,
yet, me all alone, transverse.
knowing not, its to divinity.

you came, you left,
two drops of tear, i shed.
no time for me to mourn
nor do you deserve that..

all alone did i begin..
all alone shall i end.. 

and happy birthday nikhil, or as we all call, kuttan.. turning 16, and may you live for long, and may you fall in love, and break your heart once, to know, what love is and may all your dreams come true. God Bless You dear brother.. love ya :)

oh, i forgot to say about my day, nothing great.. had class till noon, had lunch from the hotel, precisely, Indian Coffee House, and realized how worse a place is that to have food.. you dont even clean the glasses you serve.. and the place smells bloody so foul..

Geetz, i have heard your words for a poem.. here is all that i could do.. i hope you like it. and its dedicated to you :)

posts i liked for the day : [Jinju's] [Ayesha's] [Slow Processor's]

The Scream

woohoo.. what a day.. the exam.. blahh.. duh... it was tough.. crazy ass.. my instincts served again.. boo... MUX and DEMUX.. yuck !! phew... no lamenting on the turned page.. move on is the word for now.. and tomorrow is a holiday.. its going to be a funny day.. now let me hit the bed, sleep, a sound sleep.. listening to the music.. before that, let me browse for a while...

its her birthday tomorrow.. my dearest sweet lil cousin.. archana..or as we call her achu :) i wish her a happy birthday.. and she is turning 6 tomorrow.. May the Almighty bless my kid to have all the happiness in her life, may she be blessed to have all the smiles and may she live lor long, happily.. Love you achu... and belated birthday wishes to the blogger friend Manivannan S. May He bless you to have all the joys of life, may He keep you safe guarded from all harms.. Live Long..

and today's rambling is

the womb
the scream
the pain
the joy
mother born.
the pain
the tear
the worry

the torture
son lived.

Playing Discords

What a day.. it rained.. the power failure a no of times.. yet a fine day.. brushed up in the noon.. designed the header for the blog.. feels so good.. hit the books for monday exam, oh boy oh boy, its gonna be tough.. i must learn to control my anger level.. i must work hard on that.. ah..its time to bid farewell to the not so happening day.. good night and dreams to you folks

and today's rambling is

" നിന്നെ നെഞ്ചോടു ചേര്‍ത്തു പാടാം ഞാന്‍,
എന്‍ ജീവന്റെ പാഴ്സ്വരങ്ങള്‍. "

" Close to my heart you stay,
listening to the discord it played "

നിന്‍ ഓര്‍മ്മയില്‍

നിന്റെ ആത്മവിശ്വാസത്തില്‍ എന്റെ ചങ്കിടിപ്പുകളുണ്ടായിരുന്നു..
നിന്റെ പുഞ്ചിരിയില്‍ എന്റെ കണ്ണീരിന്റെ നനവും.
എനിക്കായി എന്നില്‍ ബാക്കിയായില്ല ഒന്നും,
നിന്റെ ഓര്‍മ്മകളും, സുഖമുള്ള നോവുകളും ഒഴികെ.

Never Ending Love

I come to fight with an empty arsenal
but i am all guared by just one shield
the shield of her never ending love