Happy Being Sad

He would wait for her to pass by him,
A nod of head, his gesture would be
And a heartwarming smile, hers.
Or he would walk down all the way
And stand by the tree, to catch a view,
His heart, skipping a beat, every time.
Things were more unsaid between them.
No letters were even exchanged.
Yet she managed to read his heart.
How much ever did he fake to prove stiff,
She unfolded the tender side in him.
She knew him, and all his inferiorities.
Nothing did she say, except that
I’ll be around when you’re down.
If having you by my side is
What I get for being sad,
I would forever be sad, and
Happy having you around me..
He whispered in her ears and
hand in hand, they walked forever.

The Visitor

An eternal wait for your arrival
The wait for you to take me then,
You kept on visiting me, and,
You brought no fruits, no sweets.
Every time I asked you to carry me,
With you, and make me yours,
You said, it’s not time yet,
And then you would leave,
Only to come back and smile at me again.
You stood by me in my pain,
You lend me your shoulders, yet
Your face, unseen and unknown.
And one sound night,
In my hour of bliss,
You came and called me out.

Sealed by your lips
I sweat to death
And your face so pale,
Grew bright with my blood,
And I saw you, for once, and all
Mortality, thy name.

Letting Her Go

Tears pouring down her eyes

Silently she wept in the dark

The pain in her heart

Let known to none but him

She smiled and spoke to people

Joy, her face had, in the light

Hidden behind the fake smiles,

She wept even in the light.

Nobody noticed; they said-

She is warm; lively

And with every word she heard

She cried even more.

In the hour of the dark

She removed her mask

He stood, watching her, in tears

He hugged her, no words did he utter.

A sea of silence echoed in between

She has to leave, and forever.

He has no questions to ask

For he knew, what even a pause meant

She wept on his shoulders

Drawn on his chest, in blood

The symbol of her love.

He kissed her away.

In her bridal attire she stood

He at far, eyes wet

Wished her luck and mourned deep

In her eyes, he read the pain

In her face, he saw the smile

The best gift, to her parents she gave

Sacrificing all her dream, all joy

And her happiness, her life.

At the price their smile

She left him forever

He understood, the deep pain in her

For, no other can ever do it, better.

Love

Dear love
burnt is the corpse
the soul remains.

eteral you're
though the body decays.

Where Words Wont Be Enough

No words do I have to tell you

Burning deep my skin, tears that you shed

Words, that left unsaid, and unheard

Nothing do I have to tell you now

I know, you won’t ever listen even if, I have

To shout,  or to yell at you. You’ve decided

Moving away from me, is your option

And to live without you, in pain.

To disguise as happy and calm

To weep and never to let you know

Life sure is, good indeed,
Except for all the pretensions.

Split Screen Sadness

He woke up to emptiness. His days will never be the same again. The vacuum started to surround him. Slowly, he started to choke and suffocate. He wanted to cry, he couldn’t. he want to rise and run away, he couldn’t. he wanted to escape. He failed. Bound by the memories, he lived, his life.

Title Credits : Shomoita Alam

He Kissed Her Away

all he wanted to do was gaze deep into her eyes and read all that she wanted to hide. all he wanted was to know how much she loved him, and all he saw was a drop of tear, and that was the answer for all his questions. he knew everything. he kissed her away.

Questions that he doesn't have Answers

She asked him a thousand questions.
He didn't have any answers.
She looked deep into his eyes.
All she could see was undying love for her.
They spoke, in the sound silence between them.
Finally she asked him, you understand me, na?
And he answered, in his broken voice
Who else will EVER baby ?

His Life

she couldnt stop the tears rolling down her eyes.
he couldnt find a way also.
She hugged him tight for one last time, he was lost.
finally he whispered in her ears,
every single drop of tear that falls down from your eyes will take away one day from my life.
she cried even more.

Pain

In your eyes wet
of pain and agony
tears like rain
yet burning my skin, deep,
leaving a mark of your cry
words unsaid and despair looks
piercing my heart, breaking,
me, like never before.

Her Life

mild and meek her voice
deep and emotionless her eyes
slow steps, head down, eyes wet
she walks down the road.
her attire torn, hands bleeding
people shout, in pity, and she
moves alone, along, in silence
tears rolling down her cheeks
she walked, towards her destiny,
her cries, unheard, questions, unanswered.
and there, they,fun ride of their life
taking away, her life from her,
men, no beasts, you call them.

Love

from the far, as my eyes catch a view of her,
the heart skips a beat or two, and then
she passes by, ignorance, in her walk,
breaking apart the tender heart of mine

Death

in your eyes, i could read the desire
that can never be satisfied
yet we try, and we try till we fail
embracing us, then is, death.

Smiling So Fake

as the sun sets behind the horizon
my mind goes back to the age of nine
my world was made of books, papers and love
people were goodm and all merry

As i recline to my bed post
and think, of those days, when
walking in the rain was fun
getting a candy from dad was bliss.

As tears roll down my eyes, i realize,
gone are the days of joy
what i have now, is a world
so fake, bogus and pathetic

Living for the sake of it
detached from the emotions
a smile so fake brightens up
the darker side of life.

She

as she unmasks,

fallen is the fake smile,

revealing the true face

the bitch who was once a slut.

Timeline

In your eyes, wet, that fail to reflect,
in the sound silence, echoing between us
i feel, the pain of parting..
Who? You or me? I wonder
and so lately, i realize
moving ahead is time, always
of you and of i, and here,
we stay, talking of what happened,
when the next, just happened.
Moments, silly they seem,
counted together, you never know
what you lost, what you gained too
life, it goes on, on and on
and here, i lay, in my grave
and you, i know not.

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an old post, dated june 2009.. found it missing here.. from another deleted blog :)

Hurt

burns deep down my skin

tears from your eyes

words said by me

in a moment of rage.

Tomorrow Awaits

Find time to wish and hope,
Find time to pray to your lord
When through doubts and darkness
You blindly move, or otherwise even.

Pray, till you heal.

The heart, then shall be,
No more heavy, and the hurt,
You, no more feel.

Believe, that you can mend,
Dream, all your troubles-
Come to and end, know
There definitely is future.

Look forward, to a new tomorrow,
And then, life is never hopeless,
However great your pain, your sorrow,
Life, still has its meaning.
 

Thank god, for the promise-
Of the new day breaking,
That you see through the window,
Though you heart aches and soul bleeds.